This is the song I want played at the end of my funeral. I heard it in the last episode of (I think) Series 4 of "Sex & the City" and I just fell in love with the words and the fabulous disco beat. It's an upbeat song with words that mean a lot to me and I can never help dancing whenever I hear it.The artist is AMBER.

It's also for someone who means the world to me - you know who you are!!

Love lifts us up
Love lifts us up

Remember the pain we put each other through
Remember the tears you cried, I cried too
Remember how close we came to giving up
Remember the holidays that were destroyed
Remember the arguments we employed
Remember the lines we drew and the lines we crossed

If we had known it would be so hard
Would we have set out on this road together
Now when I look into your eyes I can see forever


We're flying above the clouds
So beautiful & clear
We're flying above the clouds
I can see happiness from here

Love lifts us up
Love lifts us up

Remember the silence living in the dark
Remember the desperation in my heart
Remember how close we came to giving up

We were caught up in our storm
I didn't think that we would make it
We have only stood our ground
Now the storm is breaking

We're flying above the clouds
So beautiful & clear
We're flying above the clouds
I can see happiness from here

Sweet love to a higher ground
Love lifts us up
Love lifts us up

If we had known it would be so hard
Would we have set out on this road together
Now when I look into your eyes I can see forever

We're flying above the clouds
So beautiful & clear
We're flying above the clouds
I can see happiness from here

We're flying so beautiful
Love lifts us up
There is so much happiness
Don't ever stop

I had a "near miss" driving home last night. I was going through a traffic-light controlled junction of two busy roads - the lights were in my favour and had not even STARTED to change - when a car completely ignored the lights and came shooting out from my right. I braked hard and luckilydespite the wet road did not skid and I missedhim/her. We were both travelling at some speed so I imagine the collision, had it happened, would have been violent. I was so lucky!!

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I'm a real mixed bundle of emotions today. The habits of love and friendship are difficult to break. This poem says it all, really.



I'd like to be the sort of friend that
you have been to me;
I'd like to be the help that
you've been always glad to be;

I'd like to mean as much to you
each minute of the day
As you have meant, old friend of mine,
to me along the way.

I'd like to do the big things and
the splendid things for you,
To brush the gray from out your skies
and leave them only blue;

I'd like to say the kindly things that
I so oft have heard,
And feel that I could rouse your soul
the way that mine you've stirred.

I'd like to give you back the joy
that you have given me,
Yet that were wishing you a need
I hope will never be;

I'd like to make you feel as rich as I,
who travel on
Undaunted in the darkest hours with you to
lean upon.

I'm wishing at this time that I
could but repay
A portion of the gladness that
you've strewn along my way;

And could I have one wish this year,
this only would it be:
I'd like to be the sort of friend
that you have been to me.

- Edgar A Guest -

I am also thinking of RG, whose funeral was today, and her family. Apparently the crowd at the church was just enormous - so many young people come to say goodbye to their friend whose life was cut short so tragically.

I was listening to this song while out walking tonight and the lyrics really spoke to me....

I'm here, just like I said
Though it's breaking every rule I've ever made
My racing heart, is just the same;
Why make it strong to break it once again?
And I'd love to say "I do";
Give everything to you
But I could never now be true

So I say...
I think I better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now

I'm here, so please explain
Why you're opening up a healing wound again
I'm a little more careful, perhaps it shows
But if I lose the highs at least I’m spared the lows
Now I tremble in your arms
What could be the harm?
To feel my spirit calm?

So I say...
I think I better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now

I wouldn't know how to say
How good it feels seeing you today
I see you've got your smile back
Like you say - you're right on track
But you may never know why
Once bitten, twice as shy
If I'm proud, perhaps I should explain
I couldn't bear to loose you again

Yes, I will.
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper...
I think I better leave right now

It's nearly a month since I blogged. I thought about giving up but decided not to. It's good to have an outlet at times! I got this firework photo on the BBC website although my good friend T's picture is much better. A couple of us went to a firework display and I used my tripod to take a few pictures. Unfortunately I got lots of shots of the woman immediately in front of me and her fetching bobble hat but this was one that tuned out ok.
I'm looking at a glorious full moon through my window right now.
The kitten is growing up but still very keen on sucking my hair. I wish he wouldn't launch himself at my back and then claw his way up. He's heavier now and that REALLY hurts!