Sunday, March 18, 2007

Mother's Day

It's Mother's Day and I have had a really lovely time today. K and S gave me a hand-made card and a box of Maltesers (it has to be a box for the rattle) to go with the camera bag they'd got me earlier in the month when I first acquired the D40. I also received a beautiful plant from P which I'll try to photograph tomorrow. We went out for Sunday lunch with P's sister and her family and my lovely parents in law. After that P and K went to watch Everton play Arsenal and my mum in law, S and I just chatted and relaxed.

Since Mum died Mothers Day has never been quite the same though. I love being a mum but I miss being a daughter. Mum has been gone almost 18 years now but I have never stopped missing her - as time has gone by I am just aware of how much she has missed. She never saw either K or S. She never saw me as a parent. I never got to ask her advice and I've certainly needed it a lot over the years.

I'm incredibly lucky to have had a "second mum" in my lovely mother in law. But Mum, I miss you more than words can say. I would give so much just to hear your voice and to sit on the arm of your chair again and talk to you the way I used to. I miss the way you felt when I hugged you, the smell of your skin and your hair. I would be a better person if you were still here. I wouldn't have made so many mistakes I'm sure!

The August before she died, Mum came to the library where I was working with a homemade birthday cake she'd made. After she'd left we all had some cake and one of my colleagues said "You're lucky; your mum is really special." She was, and thank God I always knew that. Just over a month later she had left me forever.

The photo is of Mum (Edwina Rose); she was about 20 when this was taken. I think she looks so beautiful.

Love and hugs to mums everywhere today.


RUTH said...

I'm glad you had such a lovely day. Your Mum certainly looks and sounds like a wonderful lady and no doubt in part resposible for you being such a lovely person yourself. I say that not only from my own observations of you as a blogpal but also have heard it first hand from a certain visitor I had yesterday.

Pat said...

Julie, she's beautiful for sure. I'm so glad you had such a wonderful mother. I did as well and I miss her a great deal.

So happy you had a great Mother's Day. I still have that ahead of me--in May! ;)

(I didn't know you got the D40!!! that's wonderful too)

AB said...


I'm glad that you had such a lovely Mother's Day - you sure deserve it.

Your mother is so beautiful - full of grace, poise, and elegance. I am lucky to be very close to my Mom, and am happy to know you shared a wonderful and loving relationship with yours.

I'm looking forward to Mother's Day in May - to wish my baby sister her first Happy Mother's Day!


picperfic said...

Mum's are so very precious Julie....didn't your Mum look so pretty in that photo? I have seen aphoto of my mum when she was 14 and she looks like a model!
Glad you had a happy day!

K M F said...

nice post

MorahMommy said...

What a beautiful picture and post. I know that it's not the same as being here with you in person but your mum will always be with you and that she's watching over you right now.

Happy Mother's day! In Canada it's the second Sunday in May. It sounds like you had a lovely day!

Thanks for stopping by my blog.

Anna said...

This is a wonderful image of your mothere and I love what you wrote...

Happy (late) Mothers Day to you!