Saturday, August 16, 2008

A contrast in textures...
Phil's commision from the Duchess finished yesterday. The girls and I met him for lunch and then he had got permission for us to walk around the gardens with him. It was a really lovely experience. We have been in the grounds on Open Days but it felt really special to have the place to ourselves (the family are away on holiday.)
It was a bittersweet day. It was good to be with Phil and to know that the week-long absences are at an end. It was sad to think the commission is over - he has so much enjoyed being able to do what he loves the most. And underlying everything is my sadness over Karen.
I am ok much of the day but at night my thoughts rush in, the same happens in the early mornings. My heart goes out to Karen's family who had to return home and face their home without Karen.
I am trying to get comfort from the knowledge that Karen is no longer suffering and that she is at peace. I have faith that one day I will meet her again. Karen gave me a bookmark which says "Distance cannot separate two hearts that really care". Karen and I have always been far apart in distance and yet we have always been so close. We are still close.
"Life has to end….love doesn’t.” - Mitch Albom

5 comments:

Dianne said...

when my grandmother was dying she told me - "I'm not leaving you - I'm just changing places"

hugs my friend

Kerri said...

I love the quote on the bookmark that Karen gave to you. I do hope that the healing process will begin for you and that you can remember her with wonderful thoughts and that your sadness will be lifted.

picperfic said...

you are doing fine, you are allowed to be sad....

Faye Pekas said...

I'm so sorry about the loss of your friend.

Akelamalu said...

It's good that you and Phil won't have to endure long absences now. What an experience he's had!

It's natural that your thoughts keep going back to your friend, it's fitting and right but the pain will ease, eventually x