"I choose to do these things not because they are easy but because they are hard..." (inspired by JFK)
Sunday, March 09, 2008
I entered this photo in a competition on TPC on the subject of "Structures". It didn't make it into the top ten, worse luck! I like it nevertheless, it is in Millenium Park, Chicago.
It's been a quietish day; I've done a bit of spring cleaning/sorting and hope to do more after aerobics tomorrow. I'm in that sort of mood...
I'm also a bit upset about something that has been dear to my heart for quite sometime. I'm debating as to whether I should continue to be involved with it. I'm not entirely comfortable with the direction it seems to be heading in...I also feel that if I express my feelings it's unlikely to make any difference...the only option I have is to withdraw. I'm going to think on that for a while. Not make any hasty decisions!
I have been given the chance to maybe do some admin work on a local level for Red Bubble which has come at a good time for me.I need to think about that too...
I'm racked with doubts over my ability to do a good enough job on these weddings. However, it's a huge (massive even!) boost to my confidence that my mentor thinks I'm good enough. I have several more weddings coming up to practice on...and I love it so much. I won't let my fears stop me.
I guess I'm a little down tonight.
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4 comments:
Here's a (((hug))) from me. I hope you can work through the issues with whatever it is you think you might need to get out of. I recently resigned from a group I'd belonged to for 20 years because my life is so different now than it was when I'd joined and it didn't make sense to continue. It's hard to make choices like that, I know.
As for the wedding photography thing, do listen to your boss/mentor. If he didn't think you were up to it he wouldn't be using you, I'm sure. And the photos I've seen are wonderful!
Feel the fear and do it anyway! Pretty soon you'll be doing wedding photography in your sleep as you'll have everything down pat.
Hi Julie...sounds to me as if you've made your decision about continuing with that project, I think you will feel better if you disconnect from it, whatever it is. As for the weddings, you ARE good enough, what is bothering you there? You've been clearing out clutter, that's great, I think your positivity will return when you declutter a bit more, meaning the things you're not comfy with!
Whatever decision you make will be the right one for you!
Nerves are not a bad thing, they keep you on your toes. You'll do fine with the weddings. :)
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