Sunday, June 24, 2007

Succulent...


I'm feeling confused today because I feel as if a friendship is in dificulties. I don't know what has happened but something seems to have changed. I really hate to lose a friend. I don't have a lot of confidence in myself and it's so easy for all the self-doubt to flood in. If I think I'm going to be hurt I tend to withdraw fast. Not always the best thing to do but I don't feel able to push for something if I feel I'm maybe no longer wanted. What should I do? I don't want to sound needy and ask "Is something wrong?"


On a more positive note K's bedroom is painted and looks gorgeous. The blue she chose looks really nice and she's picked a lovely carpet too. I can't wait to see the finished room. We need to get the carpet laid and then her furniture ordered and assembled.


S had a strenuous time at riding today. She was on George who was feeling stubborn and she had to work really hard. I was proud of her determination not to let him get the better of her.


I am hoping tomorrow the weather stays dry enough for me to garden a little. It's too much to hope for sunshine!

8 comments:

Anna said...

Hey Julie,

I have been in this place before and it is gut wrenching...

If the friendship is important to you then you should at the very least talk to the person and make that effort. If you dont, you may always wonder and you need to take heart that some friendships, while sweet, arent meant to last a lifetime but for just a season or two. God intended it that way...and that is OK. If it is ending then you can at least end it well.

I'll be thinking of you....

me.

leanne said...

hello, thankyou for commenting on my blog, fingers crossed the closure of the school comes to nothing but it is worrying, will keep you posted. i hope everything works out between you and your friend, it is a hard position to be in. good luck! x

AB said...

I agree with Anna. If the friendship is treasured, then saying something to the person in question is a good idea. I know how you feel, and it is heartwrending and difficult. Thinking of you though {{HUGS}}

So glad K's room is looking lovely! :)

xoxoxo

RUTH said...

Hi Julie...really feeling for you {{HUG}}. You seem to be a really "giving" person and I'm sure you give your all to any friendship. Remember that friendship works both ways though; I do hope things resolve themselves and please do ask your friend if there is a problem...but don't change yourself just to please another.
Glad to hear the decorating is going well and pleased that S didn't let George get the better of her.
Love the photo....I'm gazing longingly out of the window hoping the rain stops.
Rx

Anna said...

Congrats on your Rockin' Girl Award! :) You totally deserve it...

picperfic said...

Oh Julie...what a difficult time for you. When I moved here from Southampton I lost a few long standing friends, just when I needed them most. However, the real friends shone through and got me to the other side of a horrid time. What will be will be, if this 'friend' is hurting you then is she a real friend? Try talking to her, you have nothing to lose. Just tell her how sad it is making you feel..x

Akelamalu said...

It would be a shame to lose a friend for the sake of not saying anything. Ask her what's wrong. :)

JAM said...

Out of all the ways to lose a friend, not talking is the fastest way. I'm not much of a talker, and when I do, I like to get to the point and speak honestly and plainly. Be honest and plain spoken with your concerns to your friend. It could be that she's under some strain that has nothing to do with you. When I'm pressured at work, I get really quiet, even at home, and my family invariably thinks I'm mad at them for something they've done or neglected to do. I have to tell them that it's not them, it's work or whatever.

At any rate, I agree with the others. Ask if there's animosity between you two, and if it's someone or something else, offer to lend a hand or at least moral support.

Good luck.