Wednesday, December 03, 2008

No photo...because somehow I can't be bothered to edit the ones I took on Sunday.

No walk this morning, because although it's a beautiful day, I can't bring myself to leave the house.

I have a ton of stuff to do but I'm sitting here hunched over the computer making excuses to avoid getting on with things.

I am so scared.

I am scared that bad things are starting to happen and will keep on happening. I don't know where it will end! That sounds really crazy. Doesn't it?

I thought I was getting stronger and more able to cope with life's ups and downs but instead I realise I'm pretty feeble.

I just can't let myself go back down this road again! I can't.

So I'm going to get on with Wednesday and do the bloody ironing.

6 comments:

Kerri said...

OH I so know what you mean!! Sometimes I just don't want to do ANYTHING!! And its normally at the times when I have SO MUCH TO DO!

And then I realize that its just a "mood" thing....and it will pass. I have to keep telling myself that it isn't the real me....it WILL pass! But it sure is hard going through it.

I do hope you feel better soon!!

Lori Schmidt (LoriProPhoto) said...

I am in the same boat CG, exactly the same feelings, maybe we can motivate each other? Since L got someone in to do the feeding of the horses I hardly ever stick my nose out the door anymore so it has had the opposite effect on me. We are well below freezing for temps at the moment and I just can't drag myself out there. I also need to get more stock images prepared and submitted.

Always in my thoughts (((((((Hugs))))))

Lori

Akelamalu said...

Oh honey I'm so sorry to read this. Is there anything I can do to help? email me if there is. x

Dianne said...

it is a hard time of year, I find myself reflecting WAY too much on old losses and old hurts

I too then spend a lot of time playing online bubble pop games to quell the mounting anxiety

I do find getting outside, even for a moment, helps.

You're not alone. Hugs.

photowannabe said...

Wish I was there to give you a big hug and then we could take a walk together.
I don't want you to go down that road again either. Press on and just do the next thing. It will get better.
Hugs
Sue

The Quiet Rage said...

What's troubling you???? LOVE YOU LOTS